emptiness

"An empty street, an empty house
A hole inside my heart
I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller."

You bet that was familiar~ okay- maybe i sound a little emo. but then~ looking at those fun photos at Linmin's entry. I REALLY MISS YOU GUYZ ALOT~ But i wonder how many of you really do think of me at the same time.

Ahh~ I already said that I'll be stealing images from you; and there you go.
Digital Scrapping is really fun when you get the ideas.
Looking at those pictures; i seriously feel very lonely here- the joy that i always 'yearn' for is always not here; Which is just as saddening for me as always~ Well I guess i almost went into a state of depression earlier while thinking about all these stuffs- somehow im alright now.

Seriously; when i get back in Singapore on the 20th Dec; I WANT TO HUG EVERYONE TIGHTLY- i wonder if that time i might cry or anything... "embrace" v(^^) Argh- im seriously feeling very low- thinking of the upcoming days~ dakara I have to be strong. Im having another 5years down the road so I cant die so early.

It's the end of July tomorrow~
Last Sunday was my first ever "outing" with some friends around here- Edouard invited me to the beach~ somehow yeah- my first time out "alone" to breathe fresh air which feels pretty good- and

jean left a pm for me to get my ass back to help her with her html; {dont like that leh- my first time out leh- so demanding....*sadded*}

x___x At first i thought there would only be 2 guyz going; but there was another 2 girls too~ so it wasnt that bad- I keep insisting that i dont know how to swim~ LOL; if not they'd LONG throw me into the sea. HEh~ proud to lay out my Sentosa beach towel; well again- it's not as big as i wanted. Alot of Anime talks going around~ something that i could participate in. And under my parent's rule to not be tanned x_____x im somehow forced to use sunblock- which is SO DAMN PATHETIC- Elvi helped me to put sunblock on my back~ but not my legs- so yeah; as you have guessed- my leg's are rather tanned- especially the back part; I didnt put enough x___x And my arms are a little darker too. LOL! Next outing is tomorrow 14h30~ Same place same time-
HA~ at the beach there's lotsa people now that it'd summer- handsome guyz and pretty ladies; you can find whatever you want. LOL

and Saturday~ i got my HARDDISK!
hontoni arigatou gozaimasu Oyaji!! 500GB WD harddisk- It's BLACK; nice and sleek; size of a Harry Potter storybook; well- slightly shorter. v(^^) *LALALA~~~**** No more worries- i had everything shifted to my harddisk~ Oyaji said that its for 060808. WAHA- somehow that meant that i have 2 costly birthday presents this year. Think about it; i SPENT the MOST this year~ Schools fees's a big bomb- My driving too. Oyaji's offer to buy me LV Sunglasses and now my harddisk. Hontoni arigatou gozaimasu! Plus the summer sales~

Ahh~ I cant ask for anything more- its time to save their pocket. LOL! Cos i dont have allowance here. x____x But i think in the next few years- the thing i'd like to have is a MAC Desktop- for SOLID design purpose. Tsk tsk~ everything that i'll be using's going to cost a BOMB, are my tastes a litte over-rated?

I guess the voting will be starting soon to win a domain~
my dear friends~ vote for me please! Its my "dying-wish" till now to get one. *bleah- cant wait till im older and get my OWN credit card- and purchase myself. LOL~ Even if i didnt win; i wonder if my "talking" with dad is still on. I hope so.


I guess im ending this post with this photo and MVs ^^ It's a scrapped-page that ive made for MG2. I guess this is the only photo of venice and i. 11years of friendship- only one photo like that; It kinda feels weird.. Haa; which means this photo is very meaningful too.
I guess out of the WHOLE 5s1 only both of our education path is different than the rest of the class eh- afterall- we're both alike in someway. Our Bluetooth technology always gets better..

MUSIC!
Ive got tones of new albums lately- 8 TVXQ's Japanese Singles and 9 new Korean Albums~
start off with LEE HYORI! *yay!!* been waiting for her comeback; my favourite female kpop artist.


Lee Hyori(3rd Album= It's Hyorish):: U-go-Girl
She's up with a new style~ the beginning's soo funny; search it up at youtube. Lotsa perfermance; too many to post it up. LOL; catchy-beat- somehow a little addicted to it.



Shinhwa(9th Album= 10th Anniversary):: Run
The MV's soo cute/funny~ all of them have turned into Mexican Mafia. HAHA~ Nice beat- the song's written by Music~ that's why it has such a beat- just like Minwoo's style;


TVXQ(??single) Doushite kimi wo suki ni shimattan darou?
The super fast singing which i managed to catch now. LOL!!!



TVXQ - Forever Love;
the song im listening everynow and then; x______x havent edit my playlist yet.

i'll stick to these 4 videos first;
ettttttto;
chooottto matte!!


How can i miss this kick-ass video; FINAL FANTASY DISSIDIA?
the combined world of all FFs~ Squall VS Sephiroth is quite somthing man! You even get to see Ultimacia! Gosh- watching this makes my salivia overflow- and overjoyed! Its just another MUST PLAY FFs-

x_____x the amount of things i have and i WANT to do is piling up like MAD!

massive present hunting COMPLETE

heh!
okay; i can say hunting for presents is very scary; especially when you have to hunt for ALOT OF PEOPLE!!!! I hope i didnt miss out ANYONE again; let's see~ i shall reveal-
Linmin, Jean, YS, Huppie, XQ, Lixuan, Emily, Derek, HS, Eug, XZ, WH, YC and Benedict;
Did i miss out any names? It's really depressing when you think you're done with everyone's present then you forgot someone else... x____________x
I cant go looking for presents again; the moment i think of it; i can really FALL ASLEEP! I just everyone a tee from Zara or Bershka- and the sizes; i think i made a BIG mistake for WH's size; i got him a XL instead of L; cos mum keep insisting that L is too short; *faints***
It's funny when i got home and take out all the tees~ XL look extremely big; cos i took L for the rest; [well- except for Derek's]
--dakara-- i apologise first; i 100% cant afford to send tees to EVERYONE by mail; so wait till december okay??? ***snigs*** there's a secret surprise behind too- OH well-
And and; im not very sure with everyone's taste; soo please be lenient with me!! I went hunting like MAD- pocket's burnt a big black hole already;

weekend's here again; it seems like time pass sooo damn fast; and i havent get my assignment started yet; well- i have it till 31 august thou;
August's coming! It's Singapore's Birthday!! As well as mine and tom's- how woould it be going??? Well- there will be an event going on at dad's office for National day. No idea how it'd turn out. Ha~ Looking forward to it; but on another side; i have a feeling that it'd be damn boring- = the usuals; > Kid's play.
{and im no long a kid}

Ahh~ and Linmin's laptop crashed;
We both have the same model; but mine's 1yr and 3months old; and mine hadnt crashed once; but hearing that Linmin's laptop crashed--- im feeling really UNEASY- cos my harddisk is left with ONLY 10GB! OMG- it's a total NO-NO for my case.
I cant imagine my life without my laptop- I'd DIE! Seriously DIE! Computer is the beginning of my every tiny detail on designs graphics and EVERYTHING ELSE! Besides; i dont even know if my reformat Disc works OR NOT- and if all my files are GONE: XFANTASYWINGSX might die too- so NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im desperately dying for external harddisk now; 500gb- im off hunting for one tomorrow; i'd have to beg dad to buy it for it; all my files are very important to me. x____x

on the good side;
my driving practical; ive finished stage1- all the technical stuffs covered; I can fully "operate" a car now" LOL! Now stage2 is all about training your eyes to get the information and handle the car nicely. Rather better- So that's it;
i have to get my license by the end of August- ive already completed 14hours of driving- and theres a BMW(which looks like some tuning racing car) waiting to be fully repaired by dad for me to drive- i think i'd give up the idea of driving a Peugeot 206 Topless and needless to say my dream-car Renault Megane{topless} Heh~
In my dreams maybe;

and there goes my new skin- i just wanted to make this for fun- cos i was stuck with another skin that im making: 10 Promises to my Dog. I needed to "breathe"- so while breathing- i made this with a tutorial i came by thru Xero. ^^ Pretty tutorial; but mine somewhat turn out very different; cos i changed alot of the settings; but what i love is the textures;

and ive "red-nified" the "prince's" eyes; well- as you can see- (maybe its a little too dark) in the trailer- his eyes turns red when he draws out his weapon and fight; so i just red-nified; somehow it makes him look a little like vampire. HAA

and music! ive added 4 new songs here- well- i wanted to keep the playlist short; but i have 9 new kpop albums in my kpop music database; it was kinda hard to pick;-
i guess i will post those music videos another day; meanwhile enjoy the new songs!
oh yeah~ looking for tagboard?? lol: it's called shoutbox somewhere- well FF will be more obvious then in IE- so look out; why not leave a comment; comments look nicer. LOL

VECTOR ART!!

Ohh yeah;
i tink i'll blasting my rants about my new vectors!! LOL! but before that; i'll do proper blogging. LOL
firstly; HAPPY BIRTHDAY to DEREK

Saturday!! Woo- A day in Spain, Bibao and St Sebastien for shopping. 6.30AM i was already out of the house and reached home at 11PM- that's totally tiring day. Dad snapped alot of photos. But i havent "scrapped" them yet except one page:

This is taken in the heart of Bibao- {i guess} LOL; cos there's that BIG CIRCLE thing. Ha- shopping was great- i guess; im restricting myself. Cos im spending alot of presents!! I finally got presents for all the guyz; erm- well i missed out YC and WH; but erm- its lucky that i grab another extra tee- but i dont know who to give. x___x I'd probably give to WH. LOL; who ask YC to "totally lose" contact with me. *heh!* Derek, HS, Eug, XZ and WH- guys' presents have been settled. All different tees styles- i hope i didnt misjudge any likings of you guyz. for Ladies- ^^ shh- partly its a secret- ohh well- for one person only! {lol!!!!} I havent settle YET! x____x i cant find any nice tees in zara. x__x Most of it arent tees- Nevermind; im going back to town again in this week- which is my last last chance to "save" my pocket and get any presents.

FOOD! Ooo; went to a chinese restaurant> Oriento/a
WOOT; their sashimi sushi TASTES THE BEST out of all the sushi ive eaten here. LOL- okay their salmon tastes really GOOD- the rest of the food's alright; except that it's DAMN SALTY!! they call it tenpanyaki but then you're not the one that's cooking; theres a chef for that-

the rest of the day's shopping- but their working hours are like horrible. Shops close at 2PM till 4PM! for lunch- x___x what a timing; im grateful that france's working hours are not like that.
Then continued the next stop at St Sebastien- There's lotsa things there- but then somehow it's late- so erm- everything there's a rush.

Did i mention that i'll be stopping my fetish for hagen dasz ice cream? LOL- okay; i just finished my LAST portion of my tub- {means no more ice cream!!}
The supermarket's selling for 6.43EURO a TUB!!! And in france its like only 5.10EURO. x___x France's so much cheaper- but then theres a shop OUTSIDE!! I went to buy a cup of 2 scoops- rather BIG- {which looks like half a tub!} for 4.30EURO- Strawberry Cheesecake and Cookies and Cream- GOSH- its' delicious!! HA- {do you feel like eating now??} I cant get strawberry cheesecake in france thou. > Which is almost what i had for my dinner that day.

Sunday- looks like im really worn out cos friday night i slept at 1AM after finishing Meg Cabot's Queen of Babble. I want little Black dress books!! I drop back to bed in the afternoon-
woke up and started vectoring. HA- {here it goes}

VIOLA. CLICK! JUST CLICK FOR FULL VIEW!!
That's it. My FIRST vector feat. SE7EN! LOL; who else it? LOL; you can view it at Deviant Art. LOL; yesh as you can see; im very proud of this piece; it makes me really happy that ive accomplished my first "proper" vector- Now that i got the concept of vectoring CORRECT!! YAY! Cause; of cos he LOOKS LIKE SE7EN. YAY! Lalalala- my babblings again. 16HOURS of WORK! You imagine! 101 layers!

CLICK! JUST CLICK FOR FULL VIEW!!
That's ME. I did this much faster. 5HOURS~ Cos i set the level settings to 4. Whereas SE7EN's image had 9levels. My hair has turned BLUE. LOL! That's what Masa explained about the hair colors in her vectoring tutorial. So i just followed the rule.
Okay; i should stop; LOL
And i participated HikaruHoshi's Summer Wallpaper contest with my wallpaper entry:
1280 X 800 {WideScreen Version} Contest Submission ends on 30th July; Voting starts afterwards; Oh well- i dont really have high hopes; just participate for fun. ^^
Oookay; here ends my vector illustration ranting. LOL; will be out for driving hour later. Heh- Soon i will have to take my theory test; Im scoring like 36/40- i dunno if i can even pass or not.

new master pieces?

LOL; okay; " -zen-zen- " no way for my drawings to be a master piece;
i know i took a long long time to get everything scaned; then water-marked them and get my hands typing on my keypads. x___x

firstly; my blog- here; has recieved an award!!
and there i go > ZOMG!!! i recieved an award!!! from who??? from a wonderful and lovely designer-digiscrapping artist Mabelle! Well; firstly i never thought Mabelle would come and read my boring-crappy-obessed*ful entries. LOL! Not to say to recieve an award; i feel soo honoured. LOL

Rules for those who get the “award”:

1. The winner can put the logo on her blog (right-click the image above and save to your drive for uploading to your blog).
2. Link the person you received your award from.
3. Nominate at least 3 other blogs.
4. Put links of those blogs on yours.
5. Leave a message on the blogs of the girls you’ve nominated.

Okay; but im really sorry to say i cant nominate any 3 other blogs; i guess i would give this award to all the bloggers i know. So viola; thank you zillion times Mabelle!

Back down to me; my art pieces; its gonna be long: 15 scans!! {click for larger/clearer view- if not i think you'd 100% vomit blood when you look at the tiny thumbnails and think "what a drawing- " }



okay!! this is that pretty lame-kiddish balloon drawings i was talking about for the first day during the orientation week.
its like any 4yr old kid could draw this too..

theme: on top/below
its said that this theme was the previous 1st year student's main project theme for their entire year. upon hearing that; i can totally freak out. x__x i mean!!! a topic like that! How are you going to explore.. etc for a big major end year project to present infront of 4 judges!! now i seriously wonder if i can ever even pass the first year. x___x {worries-**}



this is thursday's class:
Modele Vivant / Croquis Exterior {Live Model / Exterior Sketches??}
[pardon my translation: i thought it kinda sound weird]

Modele Vivant; so yeah- a lady came; her name's Dominique and i think she's in her 50s. So our teacher introduce to us that she's the usual model for the school. So- my first piece is totally horrible. This ----
is my second piece; which looks much much much presentable. LOL! well; her hand's placed that way but there's actually a support to it; i just didnt draw that. Each posture was only for a maximum of 15minutes!! So everything is going fast!






next -- nude drawing.
funnily- when the teacher is explaining; the model started undressing by the side. okay- so its really the nude kinda drawing. LOL
i find that; nude portraits are much harder to draw; i feel that when the model's with clothes; its much easy to draw; its like you can use the clothes on the body as markings to get the right proportion. But when its nude; there's nothing much. its kinda totally off- look at the side; that's the teacher's drawing as he is explaining about how to get the shape right... etc;

but he said i was pretty good thou for a beginner who has never drawn nude portraits before. then again; looking at how easy Mr Yann draw things out; it kinda stress me a little- but of cos; hes a teacher! LOL






this one is totally off; the leg's all out-
its really hard to get the proportion right for this. x________x
bleah- the whole ting looks weird; well- the upper part looks "okay" thou.


[wooooot; theres really alot of scans!]







AHH!!!
this one!! THIS IS MY BEST NUDE PORTRAIT!
lol- cos it looks almost all correct. LOL; proportion is alright;
except for the hand on top [neck area] the rest of it is okay!! even the feet looks like feet! About feet; Mr. Yann was complaining about how he hated drawing feet! LOL

this one- looks quite okay too. but its hard to say- the legs!! its like ***urghhh** so disgusting. x___x

its funny that each drawings doesnt take more than 15minutes... i always thought these kind of drawings take like 1 or 2hours to complete. its totally out of what i had imagined it'd be.

by the time the lesson finished; it was lunch break! 13H !!! heh! a hungry ghost like me definitely got hungry like mad. LOL -oh well; i have to admit i am one. I remember during the art times last year; i think im ALWAYS the one who's complaining about being hungry. Not to say; even during lessons when im hungry i'd start eating sweets or anything i can find. then talk about how nice korean food taste like together with emily; then watching the clock carefully waiting for the recess hour to come. HA~
i had my bento! and i ate alone. the food was delicious! hehe- i forgot whats the phrase to say in japanese... LOL; I WANNA LEARN!

14H Mr Yann was back at school to bring me and Marine to Bordeaux's Jardin Public [Public Garden] I gotta say the garden is HUGE! oh well i haven been to singapore's botanic garden before. LOL x___x
Exterior sketch is fun. Mr Yann's lessons are really fun- he chose to bring us to the garden which is much more fun than the previous exterior sketch lesson i had in april.
So we were told to draw many different things= humans, buildings, trees, etc...



okay; this is the first damn building in front of me. Sitting under the sun; without water- sweating like mad. x___x
it's not even straight!
anyway; this is the typical european style buildings. LOL! you can hardly find any tall buildings like those in singapore in the area.





some over-sized flower pots. LOL; the european style again-
i find that its rather fun; becos im using drawing pen instead of pencils and im like scribbling/drawing in some super speed instead of getting the lines all neat. LOL;
the messy "feel" which is soo much like my style. and now that all the rest of my classmates thinks that i like to doodle/scribble alot. LOL;
well maybe to a little extent. HAHA


see this!! this one is soo cute! LOL! this one is in pencil thou; those mini truck to clear those rubbish and fallen leaves in the garden. Seriously when i drew this; i was really under pressure becos the vehicle would move ANYTIME!
so i drew this like in less than 2 minutes. LOL! and when i completed; it had decided to stop there and the workers came out. x__x it was like i got stressed for nothing. LOL!





TREES!!
these 2 trees were in front of me when i was sitting under the shade searching for something to draw.
then i decided to add in some people by drawing them totally BLACK!
HA-- lol; i somehow cheated but Mr Yann said that he loved how i draw the trees despite some proportion errors and the correct figure of the tree.

LOL! well i just let my hand move according to the feeling!





that looked like some coconut tree! but it'd be funny to find some coconut tree in the middle of the city center. -bleah- no idea what tree it is; but this is what i saw; that's how the leaves were like!

and the tiny bush at the bottom; is totally free-hand; i wasnt even holding the pen properly!!
LOL; i was holding it in a way like how you hold a paint brush to write chinese caligraphy. HA-
how expert. LOL [that was totally unlinked]


aww!! i like this!!! there's some kinda river/pond in the garden. then i was looking then some perfect pose that i could draw; 2 kids standing- looking at the ducky but suddenly THEY MOVED! i was like @#$^&* you moved! WHY??? then a lady walked pass- so i quickly scribble out those shapes. below the bridge, a black figure; well- theres actually a couple hugging and kissing together- so erm- i cant really see properly; becos of the angle i am; it turned out that i only draw one person. LOL!!!!




it was towards the end of the lesson; Mr Yann wanted us to draw humans! LOL; that girl was sitting in front of me- together with her friend chatting nice; so i thought i'd draw her; but failed. cos she moved soo much and changed her position till i go @__@
previously i wanted to draw Johan and Nic sitting on the bench; but when i wanted to start; THEY MOVED and joined me and Marine under our shade. In the end; Johan drew ME! and i couldnt move- x__x in order to let him draw- and i tried to draw Marine's foot. LOL;

then much later- i drew Johan too- thou it looks totally UN-ALIKE. Well; passable. LOL; but bad. So that's roughly how Johan look like. LOL;

then the long long day ended!!!

[and my eyes are dropping too]

Friday!!

Dessin Analyse [Drawing analyse] it turned out not be what i most feared off!! Its just drawing!! i thought we will have to write tones of stuffs about analysing things!!!
Mr Yann again! He's a really nice teacher, very friendly and doesnt feel like he is a teacher at all- like some mentor. LOL; He brought a super old cello for us to draw!!


depending on where i sit; thats how i see the cello; first step was to get the whole shape out nicely ---- just like that.
then using the photocopy machine to enlarge the whole drawing and redraw on a bigger format choosing whatever mediums/techniques you want to use.




i used drawing pen! heehee! my favourite style. Its nice, fast and easy.
at first Yann didnt want me to complete the whole drawing; he said that it'd be too boring to spend the time like that. But i still did it... i even continue to work during break time. lol;
im soo hardworking!!



So that's it!!! All my drawings together with Mr. Yann!! After the morning lesson was over; i think the principal and vice-principal as well as some others [no idea who] brought along CHAMPAGNE to celebrate the end of the orientation. it's funny to hear that thou; its like soo surprising.
Well; the whole orientation was very interesting. But im not sure that i really liked the first 3 days.

ahh--
my eyes are really closing!! update tomorrow again too! about my driving!!
im finally controlling EVERYTHING!

tired to the core

wow; i just realised my journal slacked for like 5days!!

and today's already sunday; well; alright over - now that it's 12.17am.

but then when you're reading this that means you have noticed something changed! LOL; well not totally; i just modified the layout into a tables layout instead of squeezing everyting into a small box now i let everything spread it out; heeh-heeh-
and i realised something; somehow i think the css viewed in firefox and IE is very different!!!! x_____x in IE; things doesnt look as nice as in FF; so use FF!! HAHA

7 days' entries will be shown; so mind my long, windy and crappy posts. LOL!!!

so yeah; orientation's over!!! but right now; after working my ass off the whole day till now for both sites; im really tired to continue blogging about all the details.
also! i guess i will try to scan all my drawings into my lappy and post them up; taking photos with my handphone kinda really makes it look too blur x_____x

and lastly;
i PIXEL-ED! LOL; i finally tried something. onigrini emotes!! so kawaii!!! LOL

Orientation Day II

the second day's - "Colors"
nothing went wrong with transport today. LOL- *phew* arrived somewhat 20mins earlier or 30mins.

2 already arrived; Andrea and Johan? I guess i got their names right. {somehow} they were sitting outside the school building's stairs. Joan invited me to sit down; LOL- somehow a little weird; okay; so i sat next to him; then his hand started to "play" with my bracelet's charms? {whats that?} i was shocked and automatically pulled my hand away; i thought he wanted to look at my file. x___x like so awkward. then he said " im just very curious " LOL; {it doenst make sense anyway}

well; i find them rather friendly. But i didnt "bis" them- i kinda feel so guilty; cos when the rest arrived; they bis-ed each of us. x___x
okay; i'll bis them back tomorrow. Whoops;
okay; se7en of us;
and the names i remember;
Florence, Marion, Andrea, Johan, Nicolas, and the last girl; Marine?? LOL; i hardly talk to her; only "smiles" HAHA-

today's teacher's a lady. Who i met while travelling; and didnt expect her to be my teacher; cos she was staring me in someway- {am i an alien? =S}
firstly; she explained about the colors; Primary colors = Cyan, Yellow and Magenta.
Doesnt it sound weird? Well; i find it weird; i was like " ??? wasnt Blue Yellow and Read " the primary colors? well; i just get along with it; or did i miss something?

Our tasks is to fill a picture with colors. First step; we gotta choose the season we want. Well; since we're summer now; i pick summer. After tat; we will have to get our color palette by mixing cyan, yellow and magenta.
well; im the only watercolor painter. somehow i cheated. LOL! HAHA; skin tone; i used colorpencil!! HAHA- then; to get orange; i used my red watercolor tablet instead of using magenta. HAHA

then paint the image; to experiment a little.

that's how my first piece look like;

so yeah- 1pm- lunch break; everyone left except me; they went out to get some sandwich i guess; and me?
staying to use the school's microwave!! HAHA


half eaten BENTO!!! its even funnier when mum lined all the sausages nicely. LOL; that was the previous night's food; but it seemed to taste nicer today!!

anywaies; Hontoni- arigatou! Okachan!!
lunch break's 1hour. No one's around- but i wonder when school reopens; there couldnt be ONLY me to use the microwave right?? I wonder how it'd work; will the school be flooded with people!! Plus the whole place's rather SMALL!

So then; i took a tour around to take a look at other's work; frankly speaking; i guess only mine piece as well as Florence's piece look alright; the rest look really like children's painting! TT__TT
pardon for my frank-ness; but then again; the class mentioned that they never draw before. Well; and i had some "tough" training under MsHoe, MsLee and everyone else; GEEZ, i wanna go Fuhua's artroom..

ETTTTTTTO

come to tink of it; fuhua's artroom size; could cover the whole area of the school's second floor; i mean; the 3 rooms i know on the second floor; so yeah; you can imagine how small it is.

2pm; lessons resume- this time round; we're to add something tto the background etc... i thought of a swing and a tree

and taada- that my final product; i seriously cant believe that i took 3hours on this crappy-kiddish image; i think 3hours i could do some better and nicer sketches.

like those times; for O lvl paper; the need to draw lotsa lotsa image. HAHA-

so after that; 5pm left the school and took the tram with Andrea and Johan back;

And now; im seriously tired.
my eyes are sooo sleepy- and its only 10.15pm-

Lastly; a point that wouldnt be forgotten;
Happy BIRTHDAY to JOSHUA~~ biig boy huh;


and and; read this; My name's hidden meaning. HA

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

i think some parts if it is kinda quite true. LOL HAHA

Orientation Day I

one word;
BORING.

im soo sorry to say; but its totally BORING. Is it really an orientation? well; just attending their lessons to see how classes work in school. today's about creativity;
6hrs stuck in the class; and done with only 1piece of work. x____________x

i can summarise my drawing > like a 3yr old kid's drawing.

morning; left the house at 7.40am. It's really early; when i arrived at the train station; its soo much earlier! waited like some 30~4o minutes.
train tickets, so lucky that i brought along a passport photo. Instead of the 2way ticket at 15.80euros {which is incredibly expensive} i managed to get a weekly ticket at 25.50euros!! Gosh; the difference is like SO BIG. 15.80 X 5 days = 79euro. Now; my weekly ticket cost 25.50euro with unlimited travels. How do they even calculate the price? x______x
I didnt get that.

Morning train = filled with alot of people. Journey was like 47mins; when i arrived in town; i head straight quickly to the tram ticket booth to buy tickets. DAMN that machine! It wasnt working! I was like HELL SHIT! How come im so lucky? There was a man behind me {i guess near 30s} he too wanted to get the tickets but it wouldnt accept coins. When he tried his credit card; it didnt work too. Conclusion; we both didnt buy ticket.
>>> I missed my tram; =S

Then i was like praying HARD that those controlers wont be coming. I was panicking somehow; and worrying at each stop before i get down that controllers wouldnt be coming. Just nice; it's my stop- door opens *ting* GOSH! 3~4 controllers standing in FRONT OF ME.
i was like !@#$%^&*( WHAT THE HELL; i was barely safe.
PHEW- if not; i'd probably be fined. TT____TT that was really scary. Then i managed to get my ticket and change tram to another line to reach school.

Okay; i reached; safely. x___x
there like 6 of us ONLY! 4 girls (including me) and 2 boyz. Its like WOW- 6 students; how PATHETIC; is my future class going to be like tat? I wonder where students appear from to make a list of 25++ students that i saw from those class list.

that's the classroom. {i managed to snap a pic during lunch}
so the teacher explained about " creativity "
what he says is quite true:

" everyone is creative, the only matter is whether you are a good creator or not "

that's how i could translate into english about what he said. then laterwards; we were told to pick images from magazines- etc; and work on the topic;
" dessus , dessous " > meaning on top , below
it's a matter of how you interpret those words and create something. Well; mine was about somesort of Lalaland; (LOL) with kids playing with balloons; balloons that can carry you up into the sky. LOL; it sounds funny enough; i shall try to scan the image next time- it'd look even funnier- yet other classmates; well of the new girls i got to know; find them nice.

my lunch was pathetic. i was even lucky enough to find some ham sandwich! and went back to the classroom and ate alone;
afternoon; i spent time slowly adding colors to my drawing- rather pen-scribbles. Ha-
and i was the first to finish my whole piece and got to leave earlier-

somehow i feel really tired; and once again the train's filled with tones of people;

and damn the weather; shouldnt it be summer- its really cold in town that i was kinda shivering when i got off the train in the morning. x________x

geez; i feel kinda sleepy- but i wanna watch something before going to Lalaland-
and yes;; Naruto's out. Vampire Knight ended last week TT________TT
My Samurai Deeper Kyo ended; but left you wondering who survived after the battle between Kyo and Kyoshiro. I'm siding Kyo!! But i guess its him after all; since the voice to call out the main female lead was so low. Neh- I found a chinese manga site with a few titles that i wanted to read; but wasnt out in Mangafox yet. Reading in Chinese; makes me such a slow reader. LOL;
i wanna do alot of things!!! Looking at today's lesson; i kinda think i regret going for it. x__x

and my site FW didnt win 1st place at Animeshare.org's SOTM; well; its a little sad- but its my first try; i have only 4 pathetic votes x___x
well; i will work harder for FW!!

Gambari-masu!!
its been so long since ive used some jap words.

well well; im in need for a logo creation; i wanna go to Fuhua's library for art books for inspirations!!!

Oyasumi!!

it's tomorrow!

okay; that's it. its tomorrow
my orientation starts.

and yeah; im kinda nervous and worried about tomorrow's happening. Its kinda worse then going for my driving practical TT__________TT
im going to enter a new world of strangers; i really hope i'll be alright with the new classmates whom i maybe making tomorrow. but somehow; i think i gotta overcome my "anti-ness" of their trust; somehow due to many previous betrayal and loneliness-

geez; i gotta be able to survive tomorrow; cos; my next 5years will be there!

that's about it.
linmin!! you sound really strict!! somehow im a little left heartbroken.

saturday was another shopping spree in town; i got my art materials. GOSH; i bought like only a few items and its 30.53euros! x________x;
those watercolor pieces are really expensive. even thou okachan paid for it; still; i kinda feel broke... i finally got myself a short black skirt. and went back to Nike factory again.
AND you know what!! LINMIN and JEAN! that soft-nike bag you guyz bought at Queensway; cost like only 14euro!! You guyz paid it for 64bucks?? But there's only blue available. Well; i still bought that! ^^ I dunno when i'll be using it; but then it could be used as one of my luggages when im going back to singapore? Haha- just wondering. 14euro and 64bucks; the difference's kinda big!

I guess my shopping list's completed; other than my 500gb external hard disk. x____x
but the price's not going down yet- rather; it didnt go down at all. no discount >___<
It's totally "chunky" but i love it. I finally got a bracelet. Haha- for 5euros at "sunday market" where normal it's at 10euro in stores or wherever.

i wonder what's happening to the nature. global warming?
this summer doesnt feel like summer. morning temperatures are like 14degrees IN SUMMER is totally WRONG; it should be like 21 instead; and 30 in the afternoon; when its only 22 in the afternoon. >________<
i have a feeling that this winter would be very cold.

Zettai Kareshi's last episode's out already; but i havent have the mood to watch it, im stuck with naruto; but the subs arent out yet. x________x its pissing me off kinda badly.


and firefox version3!! this is also pissing me off badly. What's wrong with it man; it keep having errors then closing them- im so lucky that blogger has this auto-draft function; if not this whole post would long be gone and i'd have to retype.

Tragic?

Okay; its not that tragic actually;
but that's how he's named; Mr Prince. LOL {its nothing like i forgot about Zack; he's still alive in my " kokoro "} ^___^
Besides; the OST do sound a little sorrowful; but i like. I just realised how " slow " i am; that trailer youtube video i posted in the front page's the new action trailer; and i just realised that. x_____x
Okay; indeed VERY SLOW.

On the other hand; im so generous to release this Tragic Hero Skin into Blogskins. >___< Cos i hardly share my own blog's skin. Twister eh? Besides; new playlist;
im hooked on TVXQ's Why did I fall in love with you.
And it's NOT easy to sing. x___________x I somehow finally managed to sing more than 1phrase.

The next point; which is >
IM such a SOTONG. Love Monster's already completed. TT______TT
I cant help it but i WANT MORE; Let me add some huge bit of spoilers. *that's my habit*

Hiyo Osora's Dad; Shou Osara is a monster {but she doesnt know that; until much later} He is a Crow demon; known to be very powerful despite his image. Crow Demons are known to be much more superior than other demons; he fell in love with a human {Hiyo's Mother} So which makes Hiyo a half-breed. But she herself doesnt know about it. She somehow lost her childhood memories; memories of her and Kouro at the age of 3. {According to Hitomi; someone sealed her memories} So yeah; Hiyo's a halfbreed and she's also the Legendary White Crow; whose feathers is said to be able to grant anyone any wish.
Kouro Tenma's currently East branch SM Academy's Student Council President. Well respected by others as well as "well hated" by others; (LOL x________x) He is also a Crow demon; rather from a powerful Crow Demon house; But when he was young; 3yrs old; his wings wouldnt grow and was someout casted out of his family; but he was kindly taken in by his grandfather.

Shou was Kouro's grandfather's student. One of his visits; he brought Hiyo along; {both father and daughter used to fly around alot} Hiyo heard about Kouro's situation and befriended him; and said " When i grow up; i want to be Kouro's Bride" >> That's really really SWEET!
Together; they climb up one of the highest mountain in the area; {it was know that even grown-ups couldnt reach the top} and they suceeded. Then; Hiyo fell off the cliff; Kouro was so scared of losing her and jumped down to catch her; together both had the first wings grown.

That's the background story; which is explained/revealed by me! LOL

Until now; only Kouro knows Hiyo has white wings; and he is very protective of her. Whenever Hiyo is in trouble; he'd be the first one to save her. The " main story " behind is about who is the demon king? Now that there's the legendary white crow?? So; if you guessed---------
Kouro's the demon king. His thought only focused on getting stronger himself so that he could protect Hiyo no matter what; but somehow he forgot his main goal and start to destroy the whole. Hiyo as the white crow has the power to stop the demon king; which means she have to kill Kouro. But can she really do it?? What do you think??

Ha- I really gotta stop here. If i continue; its like i'll be reciting the whole manga.
So yeah; the whole series ended at 82 chapters! Im such a slowpoke not to realise that. x_______x
I really want more! The mangaka should continue; like Hiyo would finally know how to fly, and more about Kouro's grandfather as well as Shou Osora and Kouro and his family... x__x i cant stand it;



Okay; what did i want to blog about???
Tomorrow's friday again. Today's thursday; and im all overexcited while watching today's Bleach... YES!! Ichigo's using his hollow mask! Totally love that thrilling excitment! I wonder what's on next week's epsiode; i suppose its less exciting.

Next whole week is my orientation!! in my NEW SCHOOL; feeling kinda nervous;
well; im really nervous! I have no idea how the lessons will be like and how will be having lunch; and during "practical lessons" will my standard be able to make it?

07.07.08: ECV {Creativity
08.07.08: ECV {Color
09.07.08: ECV {Visit Art Museum
10.07.08: ECV {Modele Vivant/Croquis Exterieur
11.07.08: ECV {Dessin D'analyse/Bilan du Stage

And xz was crapping about picking up a boyfriend during this orientation classes; but i can say___ there'd probably be only girls attending... x___x lessons will only girls; somehow i might die. I dont think i can ever survive in an only girls school; {mind me} those whining complains.. will be a torture to me.

{etttttttttto- my stomach's grumbling >_______________<} = hungry? HAAA

dropped by ys's blog; and linmin mentioned about ms wong;
I suddenly thought of those mad games we had during ms wong's class. If she's reading; she'd probably be on fire. HAHAAAAA
I cant imagine we played such a game by searching some postures in the english magazine; then imitate them and guess!!! We'll always end up laughing SO HARD. =X =D
And we could play that game even thou we're sitting in the exam order. WOOO- who can i play those games with again??
Ahh-

I MISS 5S1

I wanna go back to those times; right now for me; the only place to be able to " BE MYSELF "s probably 100% back in singapore; > Fuhua Sec > 5s1; crap loudly **LOL**; sneak food into classrooms; decorate the class; rushing for art? Stressing my hands to copy SS/History Notes.. Cheering for PE games. There's alot to name.

AND

GEEZ:
the weather's so bad today. 20degrees in SUMMER? there's something seriously WRONG MAN!
my long crappy and naggy post; the usuals. Ha~
Oyasumi!!

Im off to my Samurai World > Samurai Deeper Kyo!
A Demoniac man's starting to fall in love with a woman?? WOOT; maybe guyz like that are my type of guyz; LOL; okayy- thats a different story.

shopping spreee!!

OOOOOkay!! weekend's just passed; saturday was a very satisfying shoopping spree for me. LOL!

I got myself:
- Nike Hoodie Jacket {Totally LOVE IT!}
- Nike Tank top
- Zara Tee {rather big for me}
- Zara Jeans miniskirt
- Zara White hoodie dress

I'll say that hoodie dress's really my image. LOL; but its the only last piece and it's Size L. Not too bad thou. Just a little loose. ^^ I totally love my new hoodie jacket; which i havent wear it yet. {cos its summer; hardly get to wear long sleeve; not to say jacket } (^ω^)V (⌒ε⌒*)
well; partly becos the logo is in Gold and the whole ting's metal. LOL!
*snigs!**~~

I will try to snap photos of them. Hehe;

Alright; ive gotta annonce that ive 1/2 way thru Linmin's scrapping booklet. As you can see im really slow; searching for ideas and inspirations for scrapping's not really easy. Well; maybe i might decide to post some trailers on it. LOL;
well; girls- i gotta say; how come you guyz keep whining about the torture thingy?? Correct me if im wwrong; but did i start saying torture?? I cant really remember that bit. Im just adding a little more fun into reading my letter and more ideas; you know- nothing to be afraid of; chill- cool okay? LOL; im only hoping that you guyz will love it; and not FRIGHTENED OF IT.

Well; as for Jeans; the planning is somehow completed within my head. Gomena for the long wait; but i guess; the wait should be alright once you get it. I'll make sure you guyz fall in love with it at first sight-o. LOL


It's summer now; and im so pathethic; im the only one the house who truly enjoys the presence of the sun and the only one who wants to tan no matter the constant nags i recieved x___x
Im persistant; but even if i want to tan; who the hell can i go with??? (T^T)
its really pathetic.. -lamentable-
x________________x

today's driving was exciting. LOL! cos i started to control those gear thingy.
kinda challenging; but hey! i didnt jerk the car! i managed to start up nice and smooth. LOL! no joke. HAAA- the instructor was like " tress bien!! parfait " (~well done; perfect ) LOL;
a little over the moon; LOL; but its a little scary when she lead me to those mountainous roads?? ettto- not quite sure the right road; well; i was worried that i cant break properly or something; but things went on well enough; i " accidentally stopped " the engine twice; which they call it "calle" =X then my lesson ended at 4; i shifted to backseat another trainee came..

I suppose she had much mmuch more lessons then me; cos she controlled everything. Except that she;s not really good. {well; as a backseater; i'd say she's not very good} She jerked alot!! Like when the car tries to "pick up" and the breaks. There was somehow an accident. Where she had to break in the middle of the slope {where the car needs more "power" to move up} she somehow lost control and let the car fall backwards? Erm- "fall" cant be the right word thou; and she panicked until the instructor pull the breaks. *phew****
Its really exciting i'd say. Learn about other's mistake to improve. The trainee even apologised to me; :S of cos it was alright; pretty interesting lesson for me. it might help out on my next lesson;. I just cant get my left leg into the correct position to be comfortable. =_____=

After driving school; i headed to Bremontier; my primary school! There was some sort of carnival going on. its been ages since i went. Dunno how many years back then. I thought i might be able to meet " some friends " which turn out that none appeared x_x {i guess no one gives a damn about their previous primary schools here} So far; only 2 teachers recognised me; the rest have all forgotten about the little carol they used to teach. I somehow ended up being bullied by my brother and junjie X______X; GEEZ; how old are they man; 15 and 14. =_____= Such childish acts; gosh; i hope my brother can grow up alot more and HANDLE his OWN STUFFS and responsibility.

melancholy > thats what im feeling.
depressed and disappointed. ahh- whatever; like i will find any friends amoong my "friends"; i just needed someone to go to the beach.....
sound soo emo-ish. geez; and pardon for my bad vocabulary; hard time getting the correcct word to describe what im feeling.

i completed Chrno Crusade last night, and teared terribly. Both protagonist died. Well; they died peacefully together; and looking at their close friends broke down into tears upon seeing their bodies > triggered my tears as well; then maybe if you could imagine me not thinking properly which leads to some- unhappy stuffs made me tear even more. =X I cant really believe myself to be tearing so much. But then again; the scene was really sad;

ahhh--- i stop that;
if not i might tear again; if you somehow figured what i thought; throw that thought away. if you dont; it'll be better for you.

on the good side; i found a new manga: Love Monster.
The love in the main characters reminds me soo much of Vampire Knight's Kaname and Yuuki. Im soo into it right now; and its soo funny!~

After failing the entrance exams to her school of choice, Hiyoko Osora gets an acceptance letter from SM Academy. But she didn't even apply or take its exam! When she arrives, there's something amiss--all the students are...monsters!? And the head of the student council says he's her fiance right before he sprouts giant black wings! What strange fate brought Hiyo to SM Academy, and what supernatural fate awaits her after this!?

Haa; a school of MONSTERS! The president of studen council; Kouro is a crow!! and Osora too; but shes the legendary white crow; And Osora means alot to Kouro becos of their childhood times; cos Kouro's wings didnt grow when he was young; until he met Osora; both of them had their first wings grew together {that part was soooo soo sweet} And the feather of the Legendary white crow can grant you any wish; sooo yeah; bad guyz will be on Osora's tail. Best is; Osora's memories of her feathers were sealed; which she recovered much later; and she cant fly; x__x which makes her really vulnerable.
Speaking of White Crows that brings good luck; reminds me of Eragon. LOL;

okay; im not going to spam the rest of the entry on Love Monster. Ive come across this title many times; and only yesterday i thought i should give it a try. And it turned out that ive completely been stunned into it. I will go back to it again.... Total of 12 volumes and only 82 chapters available. So please; check it out when you're free. Its really awesome!!!

Jane!